Updated: May 9, 2020
Happy (belated) New Year! By now, most of the resolutions set last month have been broken or are about to be. This year I chose to not set a resolution or a goal, but instead decided who I wanted to be. I want to be someone who shows up.
The term “show up” has picked up steam in the current self care frenzy. However, I’d like to dive into how this is impacting my own life. For me, this is more than a catchy saying, but a mindset I’m approaching life with. I must admit that I came to this mindset after feeling stuck, frustrated, and burned out by all the wrong things. Life was happening to me and I wasn’t doing anything about it. All I thought I could do was just keep up. I knew God had plans for my life and they were good (Jeremiah 29:11), but I didn’t know how to live like it. Finally it hit me, if I’m going to live out the abundance that Jesus promises me (John 10:10) I’m going to have to show up!
Depending on who you ask, showing up means knowing your physical, emotional, and mental needs and doing the work to meet them. This is true, but to show up for yourself goes deeper than that. Showing up is walking in the fullness of who you are right now towards who you are becoming! That sounds so exciting, but that takes so much WORK!
Beginning right where you are and intentionally going towards what you know you’re supposed to become takes work. This is just the start of what I pray is a lifelong journey for me.
Showing up is walking in the fullness of who you are right now towards who you are becoming! -Alysha Croswell
How am I showing up?
First, choosing honesty! Despite my extroverted personality, my tendency was always to shrink and hide how I truly felt about things. Basically, I’m so flexible because I don’t really say what it is that I want. I spent the majority of my 20’s ignoring and out right denying mindsets, behaviors, and situations. However, that only frustrates me and keeps me from having the actual deep connections and experiences that I want.
Next, changing things so that things can change! I am super adverse to change, I simply don’t like it. However, in order to get to where I know I’m supposed to be, things have to change. This means something different has to happen. I can only control my actions so that means doing something new. I’m working on taking new actions, especially mini habits, that will move me one step at a time towards my goals. Stepping a little bit at a time out of my comfort zone and into what’s next.
Most importantly, I’m choosing faith over fear! Fear was the biggest roadblock to me really showing up. Fear of change, fear of being honest, fear of what may happen, and the list goes on. The purpose God has for me requires I step out of what I’m used to and into something new. I received the vision for this blog and so many other things years ago. I allowed fear to keep me from showing up and just starting. Finally, I’m choosing to take God up on His offer to trust Him and see what He can do.
This is where faith collides with real life. I do not expect my life to change dramatically overnight. I do plan on showing up and becoming the woman that I’ve always been purposed to be.
So here’s to showing up! I’d love to know that I’m not the only one on this journey. Let me know how you’re showing up this year! I’d love to encourage you as you walk in purpose.